SILENT SCREAM~!!!!

WHY? WHY? WHY?

I'm stress, upset, down and angry... but I still have to act calm to you... I WAN TO QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAN TO GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM ALSO A HUMAN!!!!! I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ENJOY MYSELF AND BEING PAMPER ALSO!

I've been doing things, tolerate, satisfying others for my whole life....... I'm so tired... I'm so exhausting... I can't even raise my voice.... I can't even voice out... I have no one to talk to... I have no where to release my anger and stress... If the world doesn't end in 21 dec... I will end myself after that... I can't take it anymore.... I hate myself... I'm like a creep... It this my destiny?

Why people keep telling me what to do, I should do this and that, I should be like this and that? Everyone is expecting me, demanding me... I never hear from anyone facing the same situation with me before.. WHY ME????????????

People just like to make fun of me, insulting me, test my boiling point... WHAT HAPPENED NOW?????????????????? WHY KEEP PISSING ME???????

THE MOST SOHAI RETARDED THING EVER IS WHEN I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE, WHY YOU ALL DON'T LET ME VOICE OUT, THROW MY TEMPER, RAISE MY VOICE ABIT, ANGRY, EMO, UPSET? SINCE YOU ARE THE ONE WHO PUT ME IN THIS MOOD!!!?????

WHEN I DO SO, YOU ALL KEEP SAYING THAT I GOT ATTITUDE PROBLEM LIKE I'M SOME KIND OF FUCKING SERIAL KILLER?? WTF NOW??? AND YOU ALL KEEP DOING THIS TO ME EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I TOT I CAN DO THE SAME BACK TO YOU BUT I JUST CAN'T! WHEN I DO SO THEN YOU ALL WILL COME OUT WITH ALOT OF NONSENSE LIKE IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM LIKE THAT! FUCKKKKK WHY???????

I ONLY CAN CHOOSE TO STAY SILENT + CANNOT SHOW EVEN DULAN A LITTLE BIT? YOU THINK I AM SOME KIND OF RETARDED MONKEY? WHY KEEP BULLYING ME? WHY KEEP FORCING ME? WHY I CAN'T DO THINGS I LIKE JUST LIKE OTHERS??????????????? WHY KEEP DEMANDING AND JUDGING ME ??????? WHY KEEP WANT ME TO BE A DECENT GUY WHILE YOU ARE SUCH A DEVIL?????????????

Why you keep feeling unsatisfying? Why you keep looking things and pointing at me? What have you done for me then?

I really need to relief myself....... I'm afraid my life will be just like that... be a creep for others forever... SILENT SCREAM~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!