今天 。 我们见了...

终于把妳留在我衣橱里的衣还给妳了。 好不容易的，把它们一件件的收拾起来。每一件熟悉的，我还记得妳常常穿的。。。我买给妳的。。。

妳常用的。。。

妳的衣服都沾湿了我满满的泪水。。。 虽然把东西都还了。。。 可是心里却奢望着妳会回来穿上它们的一天。但我知道好多妳喜欢穿的都在我这里，我暫時就把它们还给妳吧！

（其实我偷偷的留了几件。。。）

其实心里已经盼望再次与妳见面已久了。。。 今天。。。 我们见了。。。

说实在的，与妳聊天是最自然的。也许我已经习惯了。真的，妳是我认识之中最好的女孩。无论心肠，思想。。。我知道，已经不同了。。。人生往往就是懵懵懂懂的被这缘分游戏玩弄。往往错失最爱的又糊里糊涂的踏进另一端缘分。。

虽然妳说想与我多联络见面。。。我心里又何尝不想呢。。。 我身在为难中。。。我不想让妳看见我和别的女人。。。也不想对不起任何人。。。

我是不是做错了? 我是不是放弃得太早了? .... 我不敢想了....

送妳回家。。。好熟悉的路程。。。好多画面浮现。。。我。。。想念妳了。。。

妳家的沙发，妳为我准备的晚餐。。。 我们从前的生活。。。

再聆听妳所承受的事。。。我心虚了，我惭愧万分了。。。我。。。我太为难妳了。。。我竟然让妳独自承受种种的挫折和波折。。。 我醒了。。。 我根本就不配拥有妳。。。对不起!

妳很倔强，妳是怎么过的?

我没勇气。。。 我不敢逗留，也不敢多谈。。。我先走了。。。

我们下次见面会在几时呢? 与妳拥抱...感受到妳...给与妳衷心的祝福...也感受到我们彼此的不舍...在短短的两三秒钟... 我感受到了... 我们两从心里的眼泪同时滑落了... 也没勇气再拥抱久一些... 叫人怎么能舍得呢? 竟然如此，为何要分开呢? 心里种种的矛盾，只知道已成大局。。。珍重!

这也许是考验，也许是命中注定... 想着在妳走之前多找妳...遍遍我在这个时后要去公干...

我能不能在妳离开前再次见到妳呢?

我哭着。。。

SILENT SCREAM~!!!!

WHY? WHY? WHY?

I'm stress, upset, down and angry... but I still have to act calm to you... I WAN TO QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAN TO GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM ALSO A HUMAN!!!!! I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ENJOY MYSELF AND BEING PAMPER ALSO!

I've been doing things, tolerate, satisfying others for my whole life....... I'm so tired... I'm so exhausting... I can't even raise my voice.... I can't even voice out... I have no one to talk to... I have no where to release my anger and stress... If the world doesn't end in 21 dec... I will end myself after that... I can't take it anymore.... I hate myself... I'm like a creep... It this my destiny?

Why people keep telling me what to do, I should do this and that, I should be like this and that? Everyone is expecting me, demanding me... I never hear from anyone facing the same situation with me before.. WHY ME????????????

People just like to make fun of me, insulting me, test my boiling point... WHAT HAPPENED NOW?????????????????? WHY KEEP PISSING ME???????

THE MOST SOHAI RETARDED THING EVER IS WHEN I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE, WHY YOU ALL DON'T LET ME VOICE OUT, THROW MY TEMPER, RAISE MY VOICE ABIT, ANGRY, EMO, UPSET? SINCE YOU ARE THE ONE WHO PUT ME IN THIS MOOD!!!?????

WHEN I DO SO, YOU ALL KEEP SAYING THAT I GOT ATTITUDE PROBLEM LIKE I'M SOME KIND OF FUCKING SERIAL KILLER?? WTF NOW??? AND YOU ALL KEEP DOING THIS TO ME EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I TOT I CAN DO THE SAME BACK TO YOU BUT I JUST CAN'T! WHEN I DO SO THEN YOU ALL WILL COME OUT WITH ALOT OF NONSENSE LIKE IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM LIKE THAT! FUCKKKKK WHY???????

I ONLY CAN CHOOSE TO STAY SILENT + CANNOT SHOW EVEN DULAN A LITTLE BIT? YOU THINK I AM SOME KIND OF RETARDED MONKEY? WHY KEEP BULLYING ME? WHY KEEP FORCING ME? WHY I CAN'T DO THINGS I LIKE JUST LIKE OTHERS??????????????? WHY KEEP DEMANDING AND JUDGING ME ??????? WHY KEEP WANT ME TO BE A DECENT GUY WHILE YOU ARE SUCH A DEVIL?????????????

Why you keep feeling unsatisfying? Why you keep looking things and pointing at me? What have you done for me then?

I really need to relief myself....... I'm afraid my life will be just like that... be a creep for others forever... SILENT SCREAM~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

外面的世界

雖然套戲唔係話好好睇,但係好鐘意 Eason 把声來诠释哩首歌同埋裡面既一句說話...

“俾我拣，

我宁愿不记得一个我曾经爱过既人。。。

好过记得一个我唔可以爱既人。。。 ”

從前...

天煞孤星

为什么我的女人总是喜欢离我而去? 我命犯天煞孤星吗?

二月十四

这个晚上，我与妳聊了。。。 泪水不由自主的滑落。。。我不知道我在干什么。。。 我明明已经开始了另一段生活，可是我却一直把它当作是一场梦。。。 在我心底。。。默默的盼望着有一天我会从梦中睡醒。。。 回到现实中。。。

哭

我真的不能收拾妳的东西...我可以把它们都留住吗?

我等妳回来，妳还会接受我吗?

T_____________T

EJ

只能想念你

走了就是走了，再不舍得也是没了。我只能想念你。